First night alone

Well, my mom and sis are now in india, which leaves me and my dad here in s'pore. BUT...the thing is most of the time i'm alone at home coz my dad is erm.....too bad there's no other nice way to put it....a workaholic. haha....i'm not faulting him for that. its juz his character and he's always been like that, so we are all used to it. But it does get a bit hard at times now, when there's no one to talk to at home, not that my dad is that much of a talker. i think that my mouth is juz used to talking all the time except during lessons and when studying. this is a good exercise of self-control. haha...

ok...i think i'm going nowhere with this post. lets see, what did i want to say? hmm...i remember i had a lot of things to type yesterday but stopped after that long post and today i dun really feel like writing anything. makes u realise how much a person's mood changes in 24 hours or maybe my creative juices are juz not flowing today.

i've often been alone at home for most of the day and i'm fine with that. yest was the first time i was at home alone at night. u see my dad does shift work, so he had night shift. and so basically noone else was at home. i thought i'll be scared or sth...but frankly i din feel anything at all. i think this past wk of being alone moz of the time has really trained me. haha...and truthfully i'm quite pleased with myself. coz i find myself a terrible scaredy-cat. maybe there's yet hope for me to becoming a mentally strong person. This is one characteristic my mom possesses that i've always respected her greatly for. sth i often wish i had. now i think its more of a acquired character rather than sth one is born with. ok...signing off now.

Mood : pleased

Complaining time

I've realised that my frequency of updating this blog is very low. During term time, there's always no time and now during holidays i feel too lazy...:p

But often after typing an entry I feel good, unburdened. Now, I understand why they always tell people to keep a diary. I remember the saying by someone, "Keep a diary and it will keep you." Nicely put, dun u think?

Anyway, exams were juz horrible. During exam time, my only motivation was the end of the exams. This is NOT a good thing. sigh....I keep regretting everyday for taking this course. But then I think, but every course will be just as bad. Then I look at my friends studying overseas, who dun seem even half as stressed as me, despite the fact that they're studying medicine and it makes me wonder...whether sth is wrong with me or with the S'pore education syst. Now, I think i can safely conclude that's its the education syst. I mean many of my coursemates also seemed stressed.

I juz dun understand why they have to make us struggle so much. Since young, we only study. It really kills the interest you have in a particular subject. I think they just expect too much from us. C'mon we're humans not machines! And uni really tops it all off. I think its the worst so far. Most of the proffessors juz sux at teaching. I'd always had the opinion that smart people cant teach and well i've been proven right. I understand yes, uni is self-study, I'm not expecting spoon feeding. But at least during lects try to impart some understanding of the subj to us. Moz of the time, i dun understand wat the hell the guy is talking abt. Then when reading notes before exam, if i dun understand sth, juz skip coz there's no time to pause and understand.

Grrr.....i can only complain, but well everyone noes dat nth's gonna be done bout it. so......wateva. ok...i think this post is long enough, shall stop now. Actually i'm kinda amused. i came with the intention of writing sth else with juz a passing remark bout the exams. haha....well, guess my hands got carried away.

Mood : currently amused